Morning Song
I sing for you and only you
Wherever I go I find you
You’re in the sound of every hello
I have woken up to one of my favorite contemporary compositions. It was a hauntingly emotional song that in the course of listening to it, my mind once again drifted and eventually provoked itself some thoughts.
I thought of Y again. My mind thought back the crazy moments that we had. My heart had pounded with emotions that I found myself early this morning reminiscing the closeness and vulnerable openness that we shared .
You’re the song I was destined to know
And I’ll only sing for you
Y and I met around 3 years ago. It was a surprise that we fell for each other. We began with exchange of simple hi’s that stepped up to long overnight conversations to loving busses along Makati Avenue. However, a quixotic story does not translate to a happily-ever-after ending.
Thought I’d be fine just being alone
But my heart has a mind of its own
And would only sing for you
We simply chose to be special friends. I have been afraid in becoming unfaithful and eventually hurting Y, and Y has been fearing the ruin of the special friendship we have started when we would commit ourselves to each other and hurt each other in the process. We have talked about this for a few times now and have been awed by the complexity of our situation.
We still send messages to each other, call each other at times, and see each other when time permits. If Y finds a boyfriend that can give way beyond what I can give, happy will I be. Both of us have moved on and definitely not on a rebound but I realize that still, after years of meeting other people, I cannot deny that I have etched Y’s name on a wall in my heart–as my sentimental song goes: I will always sing for you.
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